I'm terrified to write this blog. But I think it'll be good for me. Good to put down in words the things that have been hiding in my heart for so long. Good to see them and acknowledge them and *gasp* maybe even pursue them.
I recently attended a To Write Love On Her Arms event at LifePoint Church in Minden, NV. It changed me. Well, that may be an exaggeration. It brought into harsh reality the age old truth that Jesus gave us in Luke 12:48: "When someone has been given much, much will be required in return." And I have been given much grace. Much mercy. Much love. My gracious Father used this event to remind me of some very simple, but very powerful truths. Mainly, people MATTER. And they need someone to tell show them. God has put it on my heart to share this truth with His kids on many occasions, and I'm not proud to say that I haven't always risen to the challenge. But there I was, in a room full of people who are loved more than they'll ever know, who were crying out. Crying out for hope. Crying out for understanding. Crying out for someone, ANYONE, to be there. Needless to say, I was moved. I was touched. I was undone.
During this event the founder of TWLOHA (Jamie Tworkowski) shared this video:
It really got me thinking. What IS my biggest fear? What is my GREATEST dream? I've been pondering these questions for about three weeks now. And I need to share it. I need to get it out. I need to document it somewhere. So this is going to get really raw really fast, and I hope you don't mind. This is what I've come up with:
My Greatest Dream:
My dream is to change the world. Not in a way that brings me fame or fortune, but in a way that helps the hopeless find hope. In a way that helps the broken and hurting find healing. In a way that helps those forgotten know they're seen and heard. In a way that helps people know they're loved - not for who others say they could be or even should be, but right where they are. In a way that helps captives find freedom. In a way that helps the lost be found. I want to be a force in the world for good. For TRUTH. For PEACE. My greatest dream? To find the man God has for me and for his dream to match my dream. For us to be dreamers together with a purpose and a passion for loving others, and to make our dream a reality.
My Biggest Fear:
That the person who keeps me from making this dream a reality will be me. That my fear will hold me back. That I won't take the steps I should because of my indecision lack of faith. Not lack of faith in Jesus. He's got this. He who is in me is GREATER. But because of my lack of faith in myself.
